Sorry I have been a bit MIA this week. I went back to work Monday and have very little time for ME this week. It will be like that for a few weeks so please be patient and bear with me. I will be back more consistently when work settles down and I get back into the routine.
I had an interesting evening tonight. A few things happened, one thing snowballed into another and it started some deep conversations with the hubs and deep thinking with myself.
I have been on this weight loss journey for five and a half years now. For a while, things were really moving along. I was rocking and rolling and then the stall happened. Lately, the stall has been more of a slight climb. An upward climb in my life and on the scale. So, I stopped weighing. I was tired of seeing the upward climb so I chose to ignore it. That doesn’t work for me.
I am missing something in my weight loss journey. Motivation? Perhaps. Accountability? Perhaps. Consistency? Perhaps. Clean Eating? Perhaps. I think I have been looking for someone to give these to me and help me get my act together. The realization hit me tonight. The person I need to give these to me is ME. I am the only one who can do it. I am the only one who holds the key and I am the only one who can light the “spark” that I need to get my act together.
I love this quote:
What do I need from me? How can I help myself?
I need motivation from within.
I need to be consistent and stay the course.
I need to CHOOSE to eat clean.
I need to CHOOSE to workout.
I need to do this for me. No one else can.
The only thing I really can’t do for myself is hold myself accountable. I have to have others for that I have really been missing that lately. Tonight, I was talking to a long time blog reader and in our discussion we both mentioned that we missed weighing in in front of another person. I suggested maybe we could text each other the weight once a week. She agreed and I think that is going to be super helpful in my missing accountability piece. That is one of the biggest things I miss about Weight Watchers. I know that lady behind the desk doesn’t give two toots about what I weigh. She doesn’t really care if I gained weight last week. BUT, I care. I care that she sees the number and knows that I gain and I think there is power in that. I miss that. I NEED that accountability or I am afraid I will continue to gain weight and the scale will continue to climb.
What I NEED is ME. No one else. Just ME. I am the only one who can do this. I have to do this or it will not get done. Suck it up buttercup and do the work.
Later this week or this weekend I am going to talk about losing my why. My why has changed and I think that is big in all of this too! For so long, my WHY is what motivated me. My why is gone and I need to figure out a new WHY. In the meantime, I will continue to look at myself for what I need…not others.
The events that happened tonight were not by accident. There was a reason each thing happened in the way that it did. I learned a pretty valuable lesson tonight…when it comes down to it, I have to do the work. It has to come from ME. What I need from me is to get it done.
What do you need from you?