What Do YOU Need From YOU?

Sorry I have been a bit MIA this week.  I went back to work Monday and have very little time for ME this week.  It will be like that for a few weeks so please be patient and bear with me.  I will be back more consistently when work settles down and I get back into the routine.

I had an interesting evening tonight.  A few things happened, one thing snowballed into another and it started some deep conversations with the hubs and deep thinking with myself.

I have been on this weight loss journey for five and a half years now.  For a while, things were really moving along.  I was rocking and rolling and then the stall happened.  Lately, the stall has been more of a slight climb.  An upward climb in my life and on the scale.  So, I stopped weighing.  I was tired of seeing the upward climb so I chose to ignore it.  That doesn’t work for me.

I am missing something in my weight loss journey.  Motivation?  Perhaps.  Accountability?  Perhaps.  Consistency?  Perhaps.  Clean Eating?  Perhaps.  I think I have been looking for someone to give these to me and help me get my act together.  The realization hit me tonight.  The person I need to give these to me is ME.  I am the only one who can do it.  I am the only one who holds the key and I am the only one who can light the “spark” that I need to get my act together.

I love this quote:

All the advice in the world will never help you until you help yourself.

What do I need from me?  How can I help myself?

I need motivation from within.

I need to be consistent and stay the course.

I need to CHOOSE to eat clean.

I need to CHOOSE to workout.

I need to do this for me.  No one else can.

The only thing I really can’t do for myself is hold myself accountable.  I have to have others for that I have really been missing that lately.  Tonight, I was talking to a long time blog reader and in our discussion we both mentioned that we missed weighing in in front of another person.  I suggested maybe we could text each other the weight once a week.  She agreed and I think that is going to be super helpful in my missing accountability piece.  That is one of the biggest things I miss about Weight Watchers.  I know that lady behind the desk doesn’t give two toots about what I weigh.  She doesn’t really care if I gained weight last week.  BUT, I care.  I care that she sees the number and knows that I gain and I think there is power in that.  I miss that.  I NEED that accountability or I am afraid I will continue to gain weight and the scale will continue to climb.

What I NEED is ME.  No one else.  Just ME.  I am the only one who can do this.  I have to do this or it will not get done.  Suck it up buttercup and do the work.

Later this week or this weekend I am going to talk about losing my why.  My why has changed and I think that is big in all of this too!  For so long, my WHY is what motivated me.  My why is gone and I need to figure out a new WHY.  In the meantime, I will continue to look at myself for what I need…not others.

The events that happened tonight were not by accident.  There was a reason each thing happened in the way that it did.  I learned a pretty valuable lesson tonight…when it comes down to it, I have to do the work.  It has to come from ME.  What I need from me is to get it done.

What do you need from you?

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About Jennifer Swafford

Jennifer is an elementary school teacher who is trying to lose 100+ pounds. She has certainly learned how much It Sux To Be Fat and is here to motivate you to live a healthy lifestyle.

  • missionmeltdown

    Wow. I’ve been meaning to write a very similar post. I’ve lacked motivation for a long time and it’s been a downward spiral. I realized months ago that I didn’t want it bad enough. And instead of turning that around, I’ve let that set in for too long. You’re right. We can get tons of encouragement, advice, plan forever, overthink. However, it’s us (ME) that has to find that motivation within. *** fist pound ***

  • Katsview

    My “why” recently did a 180 on me and my dreams of leaving Michigan and starting a new life in Delaware are over. But somehow I’ve managed to find a new “why”, it’s being happy in the life I have right here in Michigan, or even happier. It’s hard, it hurts, it stings, but through it all, I just love me enough! I’m a walker and I hustle 4-5 miles a day, eat low carb, journal all day, weigh daily because it holds me accountable and I keep on going. Tough yes!! I live alone, no boyfriend right now, no kids, hardly any family here….so there’s no one to hold me up when I fall, I have to find it deep down in me. I’m sad, depressed a lot of times, but I know part of that sadness is the burden of this weight preventing me from being more outgoing. Like you, only I can do that for me.

  • TG

    Thanks for this post. I needed it right now. My journey also started 5 1/2 years ago and I still have 23 lbs to go. I know we can do this!

  • Kathy Menten

    Good post. I feel like I got a bit content with how I look now versus 38 pounds ago and lost sight of losing the remaining 20 pounds. Not much progress in the last year. Love reading your blog and everyone’s comments.

  • Melissa

    It is a great idea! My accountability partner moved to a different state. What we do is every Thursday morning we both get up and take a picture of the weight on the scale and text it to each other. It keeps us both from lying to ourselves and each other as to how things are going. It really has made a difference! Plus it lets us model whatever our current pedicures are :)