I Failed

I Have Failed…

I have gained weight.

I have gained most of my weight back that I lost.  It’s embarrassing.  I don’t like to fail.

I have successfully lost over 100 pounds and then gained back almost 75 of them.  Yes, I had a baby.  Yes, I had two major life stressors within the last five years of my life.  Yes, I have all the “great” excuses of all time.  However, that is what they are now, excuses.

I must move past all of those.  It is time.  I have been waiting.  I have been waiting because I DO know what it takes.  I have been waiting because I KNOW the long road that is ahead of me.  I know how hard it is going to be.  I KNOW what it takes to be successful.  I have been waiting because it is hard.  It is so much easier to eat what I want, not exercise, and be lazy.  But, it is time.  The next year is going to go by with or without me losing this weight and getting healthier.  It is time.

So, I have failed.  But, I have only truly failed if I don’t get back up.  So, here we go again.  Trying once more.  Anyone else out there feeling this way?