It is that time of year at our school again. Time for a Boosterthon Fundraiser! For those of you who do not know what Boosterthon is, it is a fundraiser that teaches kids values and helps raise money for the school. It also teaches them to live healthier through exercise.
Two years ago, I was a classroom teacher and my incentive to my class if they raised a certain amount of money was I would put my hair into a mo-hawk. Here I am with my mo-hawk:
The kids loved it and I was “cool” but my biggest memory from that year was running out to the field with my class (and my mo-hawk) and feeling my belly jiggle up and down as I ran. I felt very self-conscious running in front of all those parents as big as I was.
Fast forward to now. Earlier this summer, our principal asked us to email her our t-shirt size. I was on vacation with Kristen so I asked her advice. We both agreed, just to be safe, I would get an XL.
We got our t-shirts on Monday. I got my XL put in my mailbox. Guess what?!? Way too big. Not WAY too big like I needed a medium but I continue to tuck it under to try and make it look smaller. I definitely should have gotten a Large. Oh well, it will hide my muffin top that I have when I wear my size 12 jeans. So, I put those on today and guess what? THEY FIT COMFORTABLY!!!!
So, reality check. I am not an XL anymore. Two years ago, I wore a XXL. I am certainly not a XXL anymore. Maybe I will put it on just to see how it looks! Here I am at Monday’s Boosterthon pep rally in my size XL that is too big!
Affirmations like this tell me two things. First, I need to change my thinking. I am not that fat lady any more. I need to start ordering t-shirts that actually fit me. Second, it tells me that I have come a long way baby! No, I am not where I want to be but I am a lot closer than I was two years ago! Besides that, my belly doesn’t jiggle uncontrollably now when I run.
What are the lies that you tell yourself? Are you still walking around in clothes that are too big for you? I have learned that clothes that actually fit me make me look smaller. I don’t have to hide behind my XL anymore. I am now a Large…and I love it!