What’s up Buttercup?

Well, I totally left you hanging in my last post and then…despite my promises, was never to return…

Until NOW!

Summer is here.  Today was my last day of work and tomorrow starts summer for me.  Before I talk about my summer plans, let me recap the almost 3 months that I have been gone.

I joined Weight Watchers…again…for the umpteenth time.  I just knew that was what I needed.  Mostly, accountability at the scale.  I know how to eat.  I know how to exercise.  I felt like if I had someone to weigh me in, face to face, that is all I needed.  My mom joined with me and we were both determined to rock it.  We went to a few meetings.  I didn’t follow the plan.  The leader was great and we both really liked her but when you don’t follow the plan, what’s the point?  So, I quit.  I wasted $90 on a three month pass and I quit going.  It did not help me at all.  I guess that wasn’t what I needed.

So, I continued to raise my daughter, work a full time job, take care of a house and a husband and NOT cook very many meals.  Guess what happened?  My weight crept shot up like a bullet out of a gun.  I now weigh more than I have since 2009.  I will weigh in the morning and I will tell you all the number.  Why not?!?  I am fat.  End of story.  I have gotten very fat since having my daughter and I am sick of it.  I am sick of eating out.  I am sick of not fitting into any of my clothes.  I am sick of high blood pressure.  I am sick of waking up with terrible heartburn.  I am sick of my legs and feet hurting when I wake up or when walking after sitting for a while.  I am sick of feeling winded when I walk up the hall.  I am sick of seeing myself in pictures and wondering, “HOW?”  How did I let myself get back to this place?  I am sick of all of it.  But…I felt stuck.

Jen's First Mother's Day

Here I am with Delaney on my first Mother’s Day!

My friend Heidi, a Beachbody coach, reached out to me when she could feel my frustration and put herself out there.  You see, I have rejected Heidi in the past two years multiple times.  She should have given up on me.  She should have said, “Done.”  But, that isn’t what friends do.  Heidi and I go way back.  She was my best friend in high school and after college, we drove across the country together.  We have been through LOTS of stuff together, good and bad.  Knowing we have known each other for over 24 years, there is quite a bit of history.  She knew she had the answer to all of my weight issues but waited patiently for me to figure it out for myself (with a few emails and texts asking if I was ready yet to try her program!).  On May 17, the email came in and I felt a pull that maybe this was the right time.  I, of course, ignored it and hoped it went away.  It didn’t…and Heidi emailed me about a week later to make sure I got the previous email.  Love her!  So persistent yet kind…it’s like she knows!  I decided to answer her email.

We Facetimed.  She got to “meet” Delaney for the first time over Facetime and then we proceeded to talk for over an hour.  We talked about our family life and then got into the weight loss aspect.  I told her where I was and how I was stuck and she knew what I needed.  She has an accountability group for women who are about to be 40 or are in their 40’s who want to live their best life.  She invited me to be a part of it.  She was going to be my coach and mentor and she would be there every step of the way.  I knew without a doubt that this was for me and this was the right time.

Delaney is worth whatever it takes!

With summer starting and more time on my hands, I can now prep meals, grocery shop, plan and be successful so I am in the swing of things in 7 short weeks when I go back to work.  The plan I have chosen is clean eating with portion control, daily shakes to help me curb cravings and have more energy and daily workouts.  I buy all my own food.  I prep all my own food and I learn how to make good healthy choices with a little guidance.

This is real life people.  This is what I have done in the past with a few more restrictions (and a free health coach!).  I am ready to do this.  I am excited for the first time in the last year and a half.  I feel motivated and ready.  If any of you want to join me, please send me an email (jennifer@itsuxtobefat.com) and I will get you more information.  I will be telling you all about the specific program tomorrow along with weight and such so stay tuned for that.

How are you all doing since my last post?  I hope better than me.  Leave me a one word comment on how YOUR last 3 months have been.  My word would be fat.  🙂

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About Jennifer Swafford

Jennifer is an elementary school teacher who is trying to lose 100+ pounds. She has certainly learned how much It Sux To Be Fat and is here to motivate you to live a healthy lifestyle.