I used to weigh 125 pounds…
I used to be able to run for two hours straight.
I used to look forward to stepping on the scale.
I used to celebrate successes with 5 pound gold stars.
I used to say, “I have lost 100 pounds” and not have to add, “But I have gained some back.”
This time of year, I have a bad habit of living in the past. This time two years ago I stepped on the scale and hit that magical number of 100 pounds gone!
For the past two years, I have wanted to hit that goal again by Halloween. I wanted to get back to where I was then. I wanted to reach that milestone again. But I haven’t. And every year, I get down on myself and ask why is it so hard to get back to that place? What is holding me back? And every year I vow that THIS year will be different and it hasn’t been.
This week, with my sickness and having just lived through the magical Halloween time for me, I got a little sick of my “Used To” attitude. Yes, I “Used to” weigh 125 pounds…in high school.
Yes, I used to run for two hours straight but I had horrible hip pain and was hungry all the time!
Yes, I used to celebrate successes with 5 pound gold stars at my Weight Watchers meetings but I had a LONG way to go.
You see, I think far too many of us are stick in the Used To’s of our past. I think too many of us are holding onto clothes from 15 years ago because we “Hope to get into them one day!” or we beat ourselves up because a year ago we could do blah blah blah.
I think it is time to forgive ourselves for our current “situation,” embrace where we are and see the good in what we have done. I have lost 90 pounds. I live a healthier life. I have more energy. I am motivating others to live a healthy life. I don’t weigh 275 pounds anymore. I don’t look like this:
Yes, two years ago I weighed about 15 pounds LESS than I do right now. Big whoopidy do dah! I gained some weight back. It is not the end of the world.
Whatever situation you are in, beating yourself up over, STOP IT!
You have done great things. You are a success. You will be a success once again. Give yourself a break. Live your best life and stop being so hard on yourself.
No more Used To’s…