Today is the first official day of fall. I was going to put this post up at 4:44 pm when fall officially hit but SHOCKER – I was too busy! Between grading endless mounds of papers, hours of lesson plans and meal prep for the week, it just didn’t happen.
But, I am here now and it is still the first day of fall so I made it!
I really love fall! This was the hubs and I last fall when we went to the pumpkin patch with good friends!
I sure hope we can make time this fall to do fun things like this!
For me, fall is a time to reflect on the summer, see how it went and look forward to the holidays and the end of this year.
I started this summer strong – really strong! I almost got down to my lowest weight since October of 2011. I did the Isagenix cleanse and I was feeling good. I was working out at least four times a week at Crossfit and felt strong and on track. Then, school started back.
I started drinking coffee again, got stressed, stopped working out as much (too busy), ate poorly…a lot, and just overall let myself SLOWLY go downhill.
Now, I am looking at being right back where I was BEFORE summer and as I told you last week, my clothes are NOT fitting me so good anymore.
So, time to reflect. Time to figure out what gives and see what I need to do for myself.
I did really well last week with the “Chocolate Hour” but then I came home. At night, for some reason, my sweet tooth comes out in full force. I gave in way too much last week. So, this week I am focusing on a new “chocolate hour.” I will continue to eat only things I brought from home during the afternoon and then at night, I am not going to eat anything after dinner. Dinner is late for me some nights but I never eat dessert with dinner. I always wait until after. So, if I can just say, “NO eating after dinner!” that should cut out on the sweets after dinner.
I REALLY want to get back to losing 100 pounds by the end of the year. But, do I want it bad enough? Time will tell.
Do I want it more than I want dessert at night? We will see.
Do I want it badly enough to go to Crossfit and MAKE time even though I don’t HAVE time. We will find out!
Some hard decisions need to be made now and I need your help. I am busy. I am stressed. I am eating poorly and I need accountability. If I don’t weigh in on a Tuesday or Wednesday, will you ask me why? If I don’t check in for days at a time, will you check in with me? I am telling you, this blog is a HUGE accountability for me. Without you, who knows where I would be!
I NEED you right now just as much as you need me. Will you help me? Will you keep me accountable? Right now, I need tough love, not warm fuzzies. I need a swift kick in the pants and I NEED to check in and be held accountable.
I don’t want to end this year having to buy new clothes because the old ones don’t fit anymore (in the bad way!). I want to fit comfortably in my clothes from last winter and maybe, just maybe have to buy new clothes because the ones I have are too big!
I’m sick of it, I’m over it. I need to turn this ship around before it sinks.
Will you help me?