Weight Loss Limbo – Weekly Weigh In

So, I titled my post “Weight Loss Limbo” and then went to see what the actual definition of limbo is according to Dictionary.com.  Take a peek at this:

lim·bo

a place or state of oblivion to which persons or things are regarded as being relegated when castaside, forgotten, past, or out of date: My youthful hopes are in the limbo of lost dreams.
an intermediate, transitional, or midway state or place.
a place or state of imprisonment or confinement.

My favorite definition is the last one.  A place or state of imprisonment or confinement…and to to think, I just thought limbo was with a stick where you dance to music and try to bend under the stick.

So, why am I in weight loss limbo?  I guess it is because I am not in a routine.  When I get out of routine, weird things happen.  That’s called being “Type A” I suppose.  I feel like I am harping on the same thing I have been harping on since November.  Jacynta quit…blah blah blah.  I don’t like any other Weight Watchers leaders…blah blah blah.  I am not getting anything from the meetings…blah blah blah.  What am I doing…blah blah blah.  No one even cares or knows if I don’t go to a Weight Watchers meeting…blah blah blah.  Should I stay or should I quit…blah blah blah.

I am tired of it.  I am tired of being in this limbo state.  Not knowing what I am going to do or where I am going to do it.  All I know is I have to do something fast because this “not knowing” is NOT working for me.  I have NOT been obsessing about what I have been eating, therefore, eating whatever I feel like.  Anybody out there ever done that and found that it DOES NOT work for them?  Yeah, it doesn’t work for me either!  Last time I weighed, just over a week ago, this is what my home scale said:

Weight Watchers Weekly Weigh in February 9 2014

Yes, people…that would be 0.8 pounds away from the dreaded 200.  That would be not even  a pound away from the number I worked so hard to get so far away from.  And that was my weight about a week ago.  It might possibly be higher now.  I am too scared to get on and face reality…to be honest.

Can I tell that I weigh that much?  Absolutely.  My clothes don’t fit correctly.  I weigh yoga pants whenever possible.  I have been so sick lately…even had to take a day off of work this week due to such a bad cold.  I think my immune system is down from eating poorly.  My complexion has its own set of issues…breakouts when I am not one who normally breaks out.  Oh, and the back aches.  I have had horrible backs aches for the past few weeks.  My lower back has been killing me.  Can I tell I have put on almost 20 pounds in the last few months?  Absolutely.

So, why is it so hard to get myself back together and get back on track?!?  That my friends is the million dollar question.  I can use all the excuses in the book but the truth is, I just haven’t done it.  I have not made up my mind that I am going to do it.  Until that happens, nothing is going to change.

NOT going back to Weight Watchers is not a good excuse for me.  I have My Fitness Pal – FREE waiting for me to just use it.  I have you all here, routing me on waiting for a good successful story and I am just not giving it to you.  You see, I have to do it for ME.  I can’t do it for YOU.  I can’t do it because I know I am SUPPOSED to do it.  I have to do it for ME because I am sick and tired of being sick and tired.

For now, all I can do is make a commitment for this week.  Let’s take it one week at a time.  For this week, I will track what I eat in MFP.  If you are interested at all in my activity on there or want to hold me accountable, my username is ItSuxToBeFat2014.  Friend me.  Each day,  no matter what, I will log my food into there and track my calories.  Even if I go over.  Even if I don’t do so well.  I will track it.  I have to start somewhere and that seems like the most logical place to start.

I am going to make small changes that will eventually led up to big ones.  So, I am putting this limbo stick down.  Turning the music off and walking out of the party.  No more limbo for me.  Who else is ready to make a small change?  Who else has been doing pretty shi**y and will commit to tracking, however you track, for this week alone?

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  • Valerie Mills

    Weight Loss/Getting healthy is a journey. Sounds like you stopped for a brief break from the stress of it all. I call your limbo a “weight loss plateau” (even if you gain weight). After your rest, maybe a weight loss accelerator will help. That can be as small a tweak as adding a periodic activity to your program or cutting back on sugar consumption. Eventually, you will kick your body back into losing weight.

  • http://www.northoftheforty-ninth.com/ Caitlin

    I have been in the exact same limbo, for almost the entirety of the past year. I haven’t been gaining, per se, but I have stayed in the same 10lb range for the past 12 months. I feel like a fraud most of the time, talking about losing weight and living a healthier life. If I’d really made it a priority, I wouldn’t have started the year weighing the exact same thing I did last April. That being said, in the last five weeks I’ve made a concerted effort to turn everything around and just focus on the little things. It’s working! I’ve lost 8 of the 10 lbs I keep losing and regaining. I’m so close to cracking through the 10lb barrier I can taste it!

    No matter where you are in your journey, please know that you remain an inspiration to all of us who read your blog. You may be “in limbo”, but you haven’t given up! Keep going! We’re all here to support and cheer you on.

    – Caitlin

  • Jaycie

    I’m ready for a change! I did so well during January, but as soon as February came around I’m back to eating whatever I feel like, which as you pointed out doesn’t work the best. I just added you as a friend on My Fitness Pal–and I will track alongside you every day this week. I always let the guilt of “having a bad day” stop me from logging what I eat, but I’m putting that behind me this week and logging everything!

  • http://www.tatlockstruth.blogspot.com/ Shannon Tatlock

    I just added you. I’ve gone through that limbo before. You’re right when you say you can’t do it for anyone but yourself. You need to want to do it for YOU.

    When I started, the only thing I focused on was drinking water everyday. After a week I got that in check, then I worked on what I was eating. It’s not easy and everyday I still struggle. Heck, it’s been over 10 months since I started my war on weight loss (I truly believe it’s a war and you’re fighting the meanest, toughest opponent you’ve ever seen, see my first blog entry!) and I still don’t have a workout routine. It takes all I have most days to just focus on eating right. Make the small changes and I have no doubt, you will be successful. :)

    Battle on, weight loss warrior, battle one. :)

  • bonnie plested

    Me too, it’s time to put on our Ninja t-shirts and do the vigilant tracking we need to do, to be successful. I too will track everything, including the entire packet of rice crackers (23 ppts) I just inhaled. Thank you for having the courage to be honest.

  • Annette Strausberg

    I will commit! I lost 75 lbs (reached goal) at WW 4 years ago, but have regained 40 lbs this year, because I resumed binge eating. I don’t even recognize myself, and can’t even move around in this newly heavy body. I started tracking 2 days ago, and I WILL keep it up! Thank you for sharing your struggle. It helps to know that I’m not alone.

  • katelyn

    How do I add you? I would love to! The more people on MFP the more accountability! my username is katelynmwallace