This week, I NEEDED to go to my meeting. I told you all about the frustrations I was having, I had a horrible day on Monday (lots of stress) and I literally NEEDED to go to my meeting. I NEEDED to weigh in and I NEEDED to listen to Jacynta. I NEEDED support from others and I NEEDED to get my butt back in my meetings.
This weigh in was the first time EVER I have busted out crying on the scale! Poor Kyle! I reassured her it wasn’t HER or even the three pounds I had gained. It wasn’t the fact that I hit 190 pounds…damn it. It was all the stress of the day, plus the stress from my new grade level, plus the stress of life that did it. I stood there and cried. It was ugly. Then, through the whole meeting, a steady stream of tears came down my face through the meeting.
But…I NEEDED it. I needed to be able to sit, listen to someone motivate me and make me laugh, listen to others share their successes and struggles and just BE. And, I needed a good cry.
So, here is the ugly truth.
I am mortified. How did I let myself sail right on upward through the 180′s to hit 190 again? What the hell?!?!?!?!? But…I have already told you enough about my frustrations and I am planning to change. I have already started and I am hoping for a good weigh in next week…at least enough to get me quickly out of the 190′s. That number is NOT fun for me!
This week, the meeting topic was all about your tracker. The tracker is an amazing little thing. If you track what you eat, you lose weight. If you don’t track what you eat, you don’t lose weight. It ‘aint rocket science people! So, why is it so hard?!?
If my tracker could talk, what would it say? Great question. Here are a few things mine would say:
- “So lonely”
- “Where is everybody?”
- “I miss being used”
- “Did I offend someone?”
- “Why did she abandon me?”
- “Was it something I said?”
- “I sure wish she would come back to me!”
Do any of those sound like your tracker? Mine is totally lonely and feels deserted. I certainly have not tracked in weeks or months even. My poor tracker is missing me and lord knows, I miss it.
Tracking is really a funny thing. It is so cut and dry but why do we make it so difficult? We don’t have time to look up the points value of the food but we have time to sit and watch television? We don’t have time to write it down but we have time to sit in front of the computer on Facebook?
I think the “I don’t have time” excuse doesn’t work anymore. With the app, Weight Watchers has truly made it so easy to track. You can literally find the food in seconds of searching for it. There is also the barcode scanner that you can use to make it even easier!
I find that when I use any excuses for not tracking, the truth is that I don’t want to be honest with myself about how much I am eating. I can’t hide when I put in a food in the tracker and it shows me how many points plus it is. Reality!!!!
I am committing from this day and for the next 10 days, I will track every thing that goes in my mouth. Liquid or solid (those liquid points add up sometimes!). Who out there has not been such a good tracker that wants to do it with me.
10 days, we can do anything for ten days!
Will you track with me for the next ten days? If your tracker could talk, what would it say?