I was thinking about quitting.
Sunday and Monday I wanted to quit. Throw my hands up in the air. Say four years of going to Weight Watchers meetings is too long.
You wanna know why?
Because of you.
Because of me.
For my future.
For my family.
To live longer.
Because I am not a quitter.
Here’s the story.
I told you all I was in a funk. Well…it is a LOT easier to gain weight than it is to lose it. I have found it actually takes twice as long to lose the gained weight. So, because of my eating out binge two weeks ago, I had put on quite a few pounds. I knew this on Sunday even though I had not weighed myself in the last two weeks.
I saw that my WW leader Jacynta was in Disney World and I thought, “Oh good. If she is not at the meeting, I won’t go!”. So, I texted her and asked. Sure enough, she was going to be there. Of course she was. Generally when I DON’T want to go because of weight gain, she is always there when I ask (Coincidence?!? I think not!).
So, Sunday night I thought, well, I have to go. Jacynta is going to be there and I REALLY need a reality check.
So, Monday morning I got on the scale (I weigh every Monday before going to my meeting) and I was up 4 freakin’ pounds! I know what happened. I don’t need anyone’s sympathy. I don’t need to continue to beat myself up about it. I need to move on and do better.
Well, Monday I was all, “I gained four pounds in the last two weeks. Holy crap!” But…I didn’t have a choice but to go to my meeting. Even though I wanted to quit.
Then, just because I think God likes to chuckle sometimes. I get a text from a friend saying, “Guess where I am?” Well, it had been a year since she had gone to a Weight Watchers meeting and she was there waiting for me to get there. Ha! No quitting for me!
I went, I weighed in and I gained.
2.8 pounds. Up 2.8 pounds…almost 3 pounds.
Then, so God would really get a chuckle, Jacynta asked the group why some people don’t reach their goal. My answer of course, “Because they give up. NEVER give up!”
Well damn! Spoken like a true wanna be quitter!
Here’s the thing. If I quit, I am going to look like this again:
I don’t EVER want to look like this again. Lord my head was HUGE (Kristen!)
I will NEVER quit.
Yes, I have been going to meetings for four years now. Yes, I continue to pay $39.99 a month to go. Yes, I have technically “gained” weight over the past year. So, I have paid to gain weight. However, I don’t want to be in the 200’s ever again. If I quit, I will gain. I will be
fat fatter than I am now. And, winners never quit. And one day, I want to be a winner damn it!
So, I keep going to meetings. Gain or lose, I go. I NEED to go to meetings. Sitting there in the meeting room last night I got overwhelmed with gratitude.
Gratitude that I CAN go to meetings. There are some people out there who can’t afford meetings so they don’t have that support. There are others out there that will NEVER know what it is like to have an amazing leader who INSPIRES people to be better. I-AM-SO-LUCKY!
Just to top it all of, Jacynta gets on a little kick about binge eating. She’s like, “You guys go all binge eating and eat whatever you can put in your face. To that, I say Get Yo’self Togetha!”
Well, I am going to “Get Myself Togetha’ because I am not a quitter.
This week I am going to give myself the gift of tracking, making dinner, and exercising at least three times. I deserve that much.
And…I ain’t no quitter.
Have you ever thought of quitting? What has stopped you?