I Ain’t No Quitter – Weekly Weigh In

I was thinking about quitting.

Sunday and Monday I wanted to quit. Throw my hands up in the air. Say four years of going to Weight Watchers meetings is too long.

I QUIT.

But…I didn’t.

You wanna know why?

Because of you.

Because of me.

For my future.

For my family.

To live longer.

Because I am not a quitter.

Here’s the story.

I told you all I was in a funk. Well…it is a LOT easier to gain weight than it is to lose it. I have found it actually takes twice as long to lose the gained weight. So, because of my eating out binge two weeks ago, I had put on quite a few pounds. I knew this on Sunday even though I had not weighed myself in the last two weeks.

I saw that my WW leader Jacynta was in Disney World and I thought, “Oh good. If she is not at the meeting, I won’t go!”. So, I texted her and asked. Sure enough, she was going to be there. Of course she was. Generally when I DON’T want to go because of weight gain, she is always there when I ask (Coincidence?!? I think not!).

So, Sunday night I thought, well, I have to go. Jacynta is going to be there and I REALLY need a reality check.

So, Monday morning I got on the scale (I weigh every Monday before going to my meeting) and I was up 4 freakin’ pounds! I know what happened. I don’t need anyone’s sympathy. I don’t need to continue to beat myself up about it. I need to move on and do better.

Well, Monday I was all, “I gained four pounds in the last two weeks. Holy crap!” But…I didn’t have a choice but to go to my meeting. Even though I wanted to quit.

Then, just because I think God likes to chuckle sometimes. I get a text from a friend saying, “Guess where I am?” Well, it had been a year since she had gone to a Weight Watchers meeting and she was there waiting for me to get there. Ha! No quitting for me!

I went, I weighed in and I gained.

Weight Watchers Weekly Weigh In

2.8 pounds.  Up 2.8 pounds…almost 3 pounds.

Then, so God would really get a chuckle, Jacynta asked the group why some people don’t reach their goal. My answer of course, “Because they give up. NEVER give up!”

Well damn! Spoken like a true wanna be quitter!

Here’s the thing. If I quit, I am going to look like this again:

Jen was Fat!

Good Lord My head was big!

I don’t EVER want to look like this again.  Lord my head was HUGE (Kristen!)

I will NEVER quit.

Yes, I have been going to meetings for four years now. Yes, I continue to pay $39.99 a month to go. Yes, I have technically “gained” weight over the past year. So, I have paid to gain weight. However, I don’t want to be in the 200’s ever again. If I quit, I will gain. I will be fat fatter than I am now. And, winners never quit. And one day, I want to be a winner damn it!

So, I keep going to meetings. Gain or lose, I go. I NEED to go to meetings. Sitting there in the meeting room last night I got overwhelmed with gratitude.

Gratitude that I CAN go to meetings. There are some people out there who can’t afford meetings so they don’t have that support. There are others out there that will NEVER know what it is like to have an amazing leader who INSPIRES people to be better. I-AM-SO-LUCKY!

Just to top it all of, Jacynta gets on a little kick about binge eating. She’s like, “You guys go all binge eating and eat whatever you can put in your face. To that, I say Get Yo’self Togetha!”

Well, I am going to “Get Myself Togetha’ because I am not a quitter.

This week I am going to give myself the gift of tracking, making dinner, and exercising at least three times. I deserve that much.

And…I ain’t no quitter.

Have you ever thought of quitting? What has stopped you?

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  • Christy ~ Tired Mommy

    What a great post. I went to WW meetings several years ago and lost over 30lbs. I got into a financial situation where I couldn’t continue to go to them anymore. l kept eating right and trying to guess my point intake daily but eventually fell off the wagon and went back to my old ways. I’m approximately 100 pounds heavier than I was when I stopped going to the meetings. I just started a blog so I can write posts daily about the food (s) I’ve eaten for the day. I’m going to post my weigh-in’s among other things. I’ve done a lot of searching online looking for others who are WW members and have blogs similar to mine. Its inspiring to read the success stories. Someday I hope to write my own success story.

  • Jen

    Great inspiring blog! Hang on there!

  • http://www.facebook.com/irene.pradyszczuk Irene Pradyszczuk

    Hey Jennifer…THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU so much for your post…WOW…!!!!! I am pretty much where you are right now…I have been going to WW for 3 years and 3 months and I have not reached my goal yet…!! (starting weight 257 ..although at my heaviest I was 267) On Jan 10, I weighed in at 184.5…my lowest in over 20 years and I was absolutely ecstatic as I could see the light at the end of the tunnel. In the last couple of weeks I’ve gone back up to 192…due to combination of PMS water weight, not tracking, etc…(okay…I’ll stop making excuses…!!!!) I too find it really hard to go to meetings when I know I’m up, but I refuse to give up. Each time I buy a 20 week pass (which I just did – AGAIN!) I keep hoping it’s the last one and that I’ll reach goal and lifetime…I know that I’ve lost a bit of that “fighting edge” that I first had when I started out, but when I look at what I’ve “gained” (pardon the pun!) – no one can take that away from me…I am not a quitter…I have learned to to enjoy the journey…I am healthier and more fit than I’ve ever been…I am an awesome example for my three daughters…and even if takes me my entire life to reach goal at least I’m heading in the right direction!!!

  • edd62890

    I have felt frustrated lately too. I have been stuck at the same weight for a almost a month and feel like, why bother sometimes. I agree that we must just get back on the bandwagon and not beat ourselves up when we fall off. I was feeling that way for a few days and today was a good day. I’ll take it and move forward. Great post – just what I needed to hear.

  • Jmarielehman

    Thanks for being so “real” with your posts. I have been going to WW for 18 months and have lost 19 lbs. All of it in the first 5 months. I have not lost more then .6lbs for a year. I keep thinking about the paying part and not losing and I really do try to stay on track but feel very unsuccessful.. Tomorrow I weigh and had decided to quit if I haven’t lost something! BUT then I read your post and decide to join the ranks of not being a quitter and stay until the last 20 are gone! Your an inspiration!

  • http://www.facebook.com/raineyday81 Rainey Elwood

    This was just what I needed to hear! Thanks Jen. Now I am feeling really bad about the nachos I just ate hahahaha. Tomorrow is a new day and dang it I will be DOWN next week at weigh in!

  • brewer.182@gmail.com

    Good morning! Reading your blog post this morning was exactly what I needed! I have been going to WW since the end of August and I have lost 30+ pounds. While I’m happy with that, I am struggling to SEE the difference and am mentally stuck on wanting to lose faster – my goal is to get under 200 by February 15th. I am about 8 pounds over now…thanks for the motivation to stick with it!

  • Suzan from NJ

    Thank you for your honesty. I have quit and started again so many times. This morning was my weigh in day. I made the vow to myself no matter how well or how poorly I ate during the week, every Wed a.m I will get up and get my a** on that scale. I lost One, count em ONE pound. Victory! Have to look at it like ‘you are moving in the right direction’ vs this is ridiculous, I worked so hard and one pound!! are you kidding me? I decided it is up to ME. IF I don’t do it now, however imperfectly, I would be just getting bigger, bigger, bigger. My new mantra-smaller, tighter, lighter.
    It is great to hear others perspectives and I am with you–I will not quit!!

  • Kristin

    Thank you so much for this post! It was exactly what I needed to hear. I’ve been letting myself slide lately and deliberately avoiding the scale because I knew it would show a gain. Your post gave me the kick I needed and I finally got on the scale. Up 3.5 pounds. :( I’m mad at myself but feeling motivated by your words. Thank you!

  • meg

    you may have gained this week, but you are SOO much closer to your goal weight than your starting weight. If anything just focus on that 160 instead of the 200′s. I think you are fabulous for putting it out there because we all feel like quitting especially on a gain week.

  • Laurie

    Well I did quit and put on roughly 15 pounds during my quit time in the last few months. Time to get back on track and this is just what I needed to read so thank you.

  • Maria

    thank you. it was god sent that I received this in my inbox this morning. i had a huge fight with my husband last night about some other girl being his motivation to lose weight and I just fell apart. aside from everything else that i am currently going through i just felt my world cave in that I just felt so little. but you know what, thanks to your posting, I shouldn’t allow this to make me quit. yes, ive cheated but ive had a lot on my plate but even then, it was always in the back of my mind to try to not over eat but never to quit until last night. anyhow, thank you. i really appreciate. god wanted me to read this. i know he did.

  • http://www.facebook.com/christy.smithdeuster Christy Smith-Deuster

    I have been at WW Lifetime for 3 years now, but for some reason this was my worst holiday season EVER! I was on vacation for 3 weeks and home with the food to do all the BLT (bite lick taste) I could do- UGH! I have paid for it in spades! I used to be 15 pounds lower than my goal weight, but I have let the pounds creep back up and now I am only 10 pounds away from having to pay again!! I totally want to quit-I have gained the last 3 weeks in a row- (I still weigh in every week) But if I quit, I will have all my weight back on in no time- it is SO easy to gain!!!

  • disqus_8DocQo24UO

    I have been doing weight watchers for over 7 years now and I have only gained weight. Why haven’t I quit? Because I would weigh much more now than I do now if I did.

    If I had quit WW I would never have discovered I had cancer and I wouldn’t have gotten it contained when the tumor was still relatively small. (The people on the message boards steered me in the right direction when I was having issues. And bingo there was a problem! Cancer.)

    In these 7 or more years I did have to leave for a bit to have a baby but I came back. I simply refuse to give up. I will make it to goal it is just going to take some hard work to get there and I am doing it with the help of a book, Think Like a Thin Person by Judith Beck. I am putting in the time and the hard work because I am worth it. So is my family. I will make it.

  • http://twitter.com/losingmew LosingMyExtraWeight

    I started my weightloss journey last monday (today is my third day) and today I thought about quitting because I know I have a really long way to go before I reach a healthy weight (I started with 250 lbs). So, I was thinking about quitting this morning just because I didnt want to cook something healthy for lunch and I thought it would be easier to go out and buy something to eat … After considering it for a few minutes, I decided to keep on track and stick to my weightloss plan … I am happy I didn´t quit ;)

  • Ronda

    Thank you for your honesty. I am inspired by your journey.

  • http://www.facebook.com/people/Deborah-Diamond/13919575 Deborah Diamond

    Is your leader Jacynta the same one who was in the weekly this week? ;-)

  • http://twitter.com/BookwormTanya Tanya Atkinson

    Boy did I need to read this today of all days. Not because I was quitting (heck no, I’ll never quit!) but because I was planning on skipping tonight’s weigh-in/meeting. I know I’ve gained this week. For much of the week it was like “Weight Watchers who?” So I’m up about 2 lbs. I was going to skip the meeting because going in and having a gain makes me feel like a failure. And after coming off a big loss last week, there’s a sense of shame having a gain this week. So my plan was to get back on track and go in next week with a loss. Logically I knew that I need tonight’s meeting more than ever… recommit, get motivated, etc. But emotionally… I was telling myself another story. Now I know I’m going to that meeting tonight. Good or bad, it’s where I’m supposed to be and where I need to be. Thanks so much for sharing this.

  • http://diettogo.com/ Diet-to-Go

    We all feel like quitting sometimes. A motivational quote can help that feeling subside! For example, a favorite is, “When you feel like quitting, think about how it felt when you started.” or a famous quote by Thomas Edison, “Our greatest weakness is giving up. The most certain way to succeed is to try just one more time.” You have come so far, and it’s great that you’re not a quitter.

  • Ashley

    I just found your blog, and I soooo needed this post today. This is my third week on WW and I went on vacation. Let’s just say I probably gained back all I had lost on the first two weeks! I won’t quit either!!!

  • Brandy

    This was like you were talking I me, I have been doin the same thing in fact you and I have the same goal weight, I am currently 194, but I truly think 2013 is the year of skinny, we can do it!!!

  • http://twitter.com/SlimStyleSecret Slim Style Secrets

    This is so inspirational. I’ve recently stalled out and can’t seem to lose any more weight. It is incredibly frustrating. Thanks for the good advice.

  • Cathy

    I became a member about three months ago and I just want to say, way to go in not quitting!!! I will be adding your blog to my google reader and hope that you feel encouraged by your readers!!!

  • jane fish

    Man, you are my inspiration. Please, please don’t quit. Instead of looking at how far you have to go, look at how far you have come!! WOW, girl! You look fantastic! Work the program and it will work for you.

    Yes, sometimes, I do feel like quitting. but then I realize – I can do this! Having an accountability partner has helped. Working out BUT also realizing that doing it more than three times a week stresses me out (juggling life is hard!) has helped. Making sure I am setting myself up for success helps (for example – I spread my points out because, dammit, I’m a snacker. And if I can’t have my five cups of air popped popcorn sprayed with olive oil pam and a touch of salt every night before bed, the world will end! And if that mean a small, carb-free supper to make sure I stay within my points, so be it!). And knowing that if I only lose half a pound a week, that’s okay. In fact, it’s something to be celebrated.

    You can do this. Re-commit. And if you make a mistake, MOVE ON. When you get a flat tire, do you get out of the car and slash the other three? NO! You get out, fix it, and drive on!

    Drive on, honey! xo

  • http://twitter.com/iblogJuicing Frank

    Hi Jennifer, You are truly inspiring! Don’t get hung up on gaining the few pounds, you’ll get right back on track…I’ve found it’s a day by day process with some ups & downs but as long as you get back on track, you’ll reach your goal…keep up the great work, I’m a big fan! Frank

    • http://www.itsuxtobefat.com Jennifer Swafford

      Thank you Frank!

      • http://twitter.com/iblogJuicing Frank

        you’re welcome Jennifer, Your blog is awesome! Frank

  • disqus_PIlNQUDL6M

    Hang in there!

    I do have experience with some of the other west loss programs and even worked for Jenny Craig. The one thing they all have in common is they will help you lose weight, however you lose fat and muscle. The plan that I am on focuses only on the fat cells. A friend of ours is on WW and she already gained her weight back. The reason to this is when you are on a plan that takes the fat and muscle away if you stop the plan the first thing to come back is the fat and a lot of people get into the cycle of a never ending weight loss program. Another friend told me her mother has been on weight watchers for 15 years. This plan is very affordable and is less per mean than WW and Jenny Craig. Let me know if you are interested and we can talk on the phone.