Have you ever been in a relationship? It should be kind and loving and beautiful. Not all relationships are like that, but that is what I strive for in one. I have a story about a relationship that I have had.
My relationship with food…..
It started out as a fairly normal relationship. It was good to me when I needed it. It made me healthy and strong. I was young then and didn’t know yet how to use it and abuse it. At this time we had the loving and kind relationship.
As I got older, crap happened in life and I started becoming an emotional wreck. I learned that I could turn to it and and feel better. It was there for me to comfort and sooth me. I really loved having “it” to turn to.
Then, after a while, my feelings started to turn. I started gaining weight. That was when I started one of my many diet attempts. I was in college, so I was still fairly young. The first couple of times that I lost weight, I did well. I lost weight and managed to keep it off for a while. I learned what food I could have a relationship with that did good things for my body and which ones I couldn’t.
After college, I got married and started my family. I think that I was so focused on my kids that nutrition just went out the window. I did try dieting again but as soon as I lost weight, I would get pregnant again and that is where the gaining and losing and gaining and losing started.
After a while food started to fail me. All of a sudden I was having trouble doing things that used to be no trouble. It started failing my body. I was the highest weight I had ever been, my feet hurt when I would get up in the mornings, I couldn’t paint my toenails anymore, I was on the verge of diabetes….
My relationship at this point was getting very abusive. I would get upset with something and instead of turning to food for comfort, it became an all out binge on food. Then, the feelings afterward were that of hatred towards myself. This is the point where food was there for me but turned on me and made me start hating my behaviors. This was the point I realized what kind of relationship we actually had. One of abuse and not of love.
Food is now my enemy. Gone is the loving relationship that we once had. I have to mourn that relationship because right now it is gone. I want to eventually get back to the healthy relationship we once had, but right now, I want it to not have so much importance in my life. I am kicking this abusive relationship to the curb. I do not want it to be like this anymore. I am slowly learning how to do that. In the process, I hope to have a better relationship with it in the future and to feel better about myself.
With all that being said, let’s get to this week’s weigh in:
I am down again in weight this week of 1.2 lbs!!!
I am working hard to get to a loss of 25 lbs. and I am almost there! I am so excited that I am getting rid of this weight forever!!
My tip of the week:
Eat to live not live to eat.
I tried to find one that went along with my theme and I thought this one fit perfectly. I have come to realize that when you get all of the crap food out of your system, real food tastes really good. I now love vegetables! I can’t believe that because there used to be very few veggies that I liked.
When I am eating to live, I feel better about myself, my clothes feel looser and I just feel better.
When I am living to eat, I feel horrible about myself, can’t fit into my clothes, and I am just overall not happy.
I so want to eat to live and be the best me that I can be!!
How has your relationship with food been? Have you been living to eat or eating to live?
Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.”
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